User blog:ThatOneNeighbor/Drawing My Anger Out... NOT...

Ugh... comments will be ignored for this one... read, maybe... but it won't matter...

So... today is the 3 year anniversary of my Nana's death... yeah. And you know what? Those bitches I call 'Family' don't even give a shit. They didn't even say her name! I REALLY want to hurt someone, but when I tell them how I feel, they just tell me to stop and say it's not cute. 'NOT. CUTE. Sorry I'm not Little Miss Perfect, 'MOM', but at least I have a dream!' She said she doesn't know where I got my attitude, and that it wasn't from her. She always says it's my dad who I barely see, the man who left us when I was 3 months old,  the one who's married many times, the one who, despite this, ACTUALY treats me like a human being capable of emotion. Yeah, some mom you are. Whenever we have our sweet moments and are getting along, she downgrades it by acting like a crippled women and bitching at me. And she treats my brothers with respect and,  I dont know, actually TALKS to them?! Notices they exsist? DON'T make them do work like a FUCKING favorite chooser?! And she treats my retarded ass cousin like her own daughter! She is an absolutely HORRENDOUS mother, always letting her baby wander around, let her be near the stove and just keeps her lazy ass down, and STARES AT HER! ...Ugh... she even let's her cry and curses at her, and she doesn't say she's out of stuff until it's gone. Like REALLY?! SHE IS 27 BUT THE DOCTOR SAID SHE HAS THE MENTAL CAPACITY OF A 10 YEAR OLD!!! She... I really want to kill her, but I can't because it's 'Not Cute'. She is Bipolar, which has no triggers. I might have BPD, which has triggers. Oh wow, I forgot what I was about to say... and, BTW, I DON'T CARE IF THIS ONE HAS SPELLING ERRORS! I DON'T CARE IF I'M ANNOYING YOU! I'M ALREADY SO USED TO ABANDONMENT THAT I DON'T EVEN GIVE A SHIT ANYMORE!!! SO LEAVE, GET ME OUT OF YOUR LIFE, JUST DONT TELL ME BEFORE YOU DO, BECAUSE I COULD CARE LESS! Actually, No I Couldn't...

FYI, SHE BLAMES HER STRESS ON ME AND WORK...

I know this sucks, I wanted it to. I might go on Hiatus, depends on my mood. I'll still stalk the wiki, just... I won't do shit... UGH, I should be saying something else, too... fuck it...