Board Thread:Fun and Games/@comment-10581381-20170821104040/@comment-4241330-20180820023219

GizmotheMogwai17 wrote: I found this YouTube video today and it very much reflects the way I once was. Back when I was a child, I was a horrible person towards my mom. I would say rude, mean, and hateful things about her, laugh at her for no reason whatsoever, call her names, lie to her, and blame every single problem in my life on her. Just like the mom in the video, my mother never did a thing to deserve that type of attitude! She has always loved me with all her heart and did everything she could for me. As I grew older and matured, I had begun to realize the importance of having a mom who loves me. One day, as I lied in my bed thinking of all the terrible things I had said about her/mean "pranks" and other mischievous things I had done to her, it was as if my entire life had changed in an instant. I only have one mom. Not only that, but I have one of the nicest and most kindest mothers I know. That morning, I ran into her room crying, gently hugged her, and apologized for everything I'd done in the past. I basically treated her like Meg from Family Guy and there was NO reason for me to act like that towards such a wonderful, amazing woman whatsoever. While time has went on and mom has forgiven me for my past behaviors, I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive myself. I said some things about my beloved mom that are just downright unforgivable in my opinion. I can't believe I let such filth come out of my mouth! I mean, how did I even say those things with a clear conscience? Those past times will probably haunt me for the rest of my life. Those horrible memories will make me tear up until the day I die and it's all my fault! Words are a powerful tool, they can be used to bring people together or as a weapon to tear them apart. I really wish I had prevented those horrible, disgusting things from being spoken when I still had the chance. As a child, I made one of the worst mistakes a person could:Repeatedly taking my mother's love for granted. That profound moment when I realized how badly I had been mistreating this loving, kind, smart, caring woman was one of the days in my life I will never forget. Ever since that much awaited day had come, I no longer insult my mother, I don't cuss or make crude jokes about sex in front of her, I never call her names, I always tell her the truth, and I make sure to do nice gestures towards her all the time. But regardless of how much things have changed, those before times when I completely disrespected her will always depress me every time I think about them:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tPEhswuLjSU The important thing is that your mother forgives you. You should let go of your guilt, leave the past in the past. You're aware of your mistakes and know not to do it again.