User blog:ThatOneNeighbor/It's Christmas Time Again...

Ugh... Christmas. I don't feel so happy about it. My dear sweet Grandma...died... around Christmas Time in 2012. I cried myself to sleep last night just thinking about her sweet little smile. There are so many things I wanted to ask her, so many things I wanna show her... but it's to late. She's gone and dead now. Died in the cold, unforgiving hands of Breast Cancer... and possibly sadness. Her sister, my Great Aunt died earlier that year. She said; "How will I live without my sister" at her funeral and died months later. I'm sad and lonely without them, for they were my only true friends. The worst part is that I tried ignoring her, well aware she was in pain during her final month. I purposely avoided the poor old women, and look at me now. A weak, pathetic little girl who got BPD because of her own fears. I miss them dearly, and my emotions are spiraling out of control.

Merry Christmas,  Nana and Aunt Audrey... wherever you are...