Board Thread:Proposals/@comment-24583896-20150624150209/@comment-762531-20150624172105

RandomzSunfish23901 wrote:

Brittonbubba wrote:

RandomzSunfish23901 wrote:

1MysteriousEnigma wrote: Randomz, I have a few things to say to you

Sometimes, it makes absolutely no sense how selfish you are. You're a fairly sweet guy and all, but you're concerned with yourself before anyone and it isn't always fair. I need you to realize that everything you involve yourself with does not have to be personal, especially when you have an entire community to look after. As an admin, it is crucial you take consideration of others to better this community's livelihood, but I haven't seen much of that out of you. I'm not saying this based on my relationship with you, but how you've presented yourself to others. I know I can't change the kind of person you are, but I know you're better than this and it disappoints me you haven't grown out of it yet :( ...... You're right, 1ME. I've grown weaker as an admin. I have disappointed many people here and should be ashamed of myself. I can never fix the way I do stuff around here. I really wish I could, but there are things not everyone can do. Not being able to think about myself is one of those. I try to help people on this wiki but it usually gets nowhere. I wish I could fix all of those times I screwed up. But that's time I'll never get back. Ever.

And no matter what I do, I'll never change. I'll always want to, but I'll never be able to. I'm out of options here. I'm failing my wiki as an admin. I always try to solve problems with KAIF (I am patient with him unless he spams me with messages). I try to be patient as well, but even then, I can break. I know I have failed everyone here and don't deserve to write on this thread. :(

In any case that I decide to step down, I hope someone finds a better admin than me. Because I have failed everyone here..... I mean it. My real reason for writing on this thread is to help this wiki, but I'm just causing more problems. I try to help with certain situations, but it never works out how I expected it to. I just wish I could go back in time and fix what I've done.

I know people love me being an admin, but I hate how I turned out. I basically encouraged KAIF to spam peoples' walls by helping him with his episodes. I basically ruined this wiki. I'm helpful, but my selfish needs have ruined this wiki.

I'm not gonna step down, though. I know people depend on me here. People like my ideas. People like my characters and episodes. People like ME. I may be some sh*tty admin, but I can try to change. It's possible for bad people to change into good people. I'm ready to do so. I need to find a way to stop my selfishness before it turns bad. I'm not gonna end up like KAIF. I'm so sorry to anyone I have angered with my selfishness. It's just a force of habit. But I promise you all that I won't act selfish. I'll act as caring as possible. You all have shown me how I've been acting and treating you. I will try to change my ways. I promise.

1ME. Thank you for showing me the way. I now realize how selfish I've been to those around me. I thank you greatly for helping me. I owe it all to you. You have changed a man's perspective today. :) I wish I could be the same as you, but I have EXTREME fucking psychological and emotional issues. I feel like I'm losing everyone's trust and friendship because I'm such an asshole and I'm unable to fix that fact.... Britt, you and I are two different people. But we both seem like the same person. : I know... I just WANT to be nice, but, I'm not using this as an excuse, I have Asperger's. That means it's hard for me to develop mentally as a person...

And no, it's not my fault that I'm letting my Asperger's hold me down. Don't let Autism Speaks fool you. Autism Speaks gives autism a bad name and they all deserve to go to hell for giving autistic people like me a bad name...

Anyway, I honestly try to develop mentally, but I can't...