Thread:1MysteriousEnigma/@comment-24583896-20160427132714

Before I leave the events of yesterday, I need to get this off my chest. I want you all to know that the issue in itself didn’t bother me as much as how many chose to respond. What irks me even more was suggesting the entire thing was my fault. I made a mistake, I’m aware that I often make them, and I can accept that. However, I refuse to believe I'm completely responsible. So, here's my side of the story (and I will be targeting people here):

I found out about the issue through a message on Google+, sent to me by Aiden. I took action and the first thing I did was read over that review of LoHTT. Only to find that it really wasn't that offensive. However, Aiden convinced me that the review discouraged Elissa, and her response, at first, sort of validated that. I thought “maybe she's overreacting”, and figured she didn't think things through enough. I couldn't help that (though I “sort of” did by deleting her dreary comment and reversing an edit of hers).

So, Aiden found out the review was written by HTF1234 and confronted them on their message wall. After several words were exchanged, I saw that no solution was in progress and gave my own insight (which would later be taken the wrong way). The purpose was to offer a way to help Elissa through this issue. It was an example of one that could have been handled on her own, but her initial response wasn't the way to solve it. Later on, Blue decided to reply, and approached the situation timidly. This is where I figured a solution had to be reached right then and there because it was attracting everybody's attention. I closed the thread on HTF1234’s message wall and invited everyone to discuss it here.

Things were going relatively okay at first. But there was a drastic shift of focus when many of you began to take offense to a statement of mine: I foolishly declared that “self-esteem was nothing more than an excuse”). I composed that thread in hopes of allowing everyone to decide how to improve HTFF; it was not my intention for things to erupt into chaos, I swear. But instead, it came to be about the effects of self-esteem and how extremely biased I was. So much, in fact, that Elissa was prepared to leave. I mean, seriously...WHAT?!

This is where I have a problem. I was hoping to work toward a solution on behalf of us all, but the issue was taken out on me. If I really wanted Elissa to leave, believe me, I would have said it loud and clear. But I didn’t. By now, you should all know that I’d never lie to you and that I wouldn’t hurt you on purpose. If I do just the opposite, however, I’m willing to apologize and make things right!

In this case, many were convinced that I involved myself just to "prove Elissa wrong" and hurt her feelings. Does that sound like something I would do? If it seemed that way, you could have addressed me through my message wall, not on a community thread. You all should know better. That hostility marked in that discussion was a prime example of how chaotic this fandom still is. How did a peace-oriented discussion spiral out of control over a SIMPLE. MISTAKE?!

Yeah, I totally see how it's only my fault though. After all, how can we all ignore Elissa’s optimism, or Deadly’s pacifism, or Aiden’s consideration, or HTF1234’s wisdom, or Blue’s bravery? Right, because it wasn't there! You expect me to believe I’m responsible for the worst of it when none of you tried solving the problem? Who tried though? Oh right, ME!!

Clearly, my past actions meant absolutely nothing since I "accidentally" offended you all. If you tried to make me feel bad over it, now you see why there's no way you could. I'm not the only one who should “think before they speak”, and I do it more often than not anyway. Don't forget that I don't always have to be nice, you all have witnessed that. Don’t think I’m afraid of any of you either. I wasn’t running away from the problem (if anything, Elissa was. She wanted to leave, not me). Direct anything toward me and I will respond, whether you like what I have to say or not. 