Thread:1MysteriousEnigma/@comment-24583896-20160428120002

Here's my official apology to you all, I hope it's acceptable. I'm sorry it took so long, I did start this project rather late. I spent the afternoon with a friend, when I decided to record this. I didn't realize how guilty I felt until I broke down and couldn't find a way to speak to her anymore. The crying persisted for many hours. During the trip home, I cried. Arriving home around 8 PM, I was crying. Handing a few minor things around the house, I was still crying. But that's why I had to wait in order to make this video (I'll explain later)

I chose to acknowledge Aiden early on because I figured my behavior affected him the most. So I have a few more things to say that we're not addressed in the video itself:

I wish to regain everyone's trust. I don't associate myself with you all to find ways to be mean toward you. No, I want to build meaningful, long-lasting relationships with you all. I'm sorry about any bothersome issues any of you may be going through personally, but my behavior lately was not abuse. Not in the context of “I hate you” or “I want you to suffer”, but I was abusing “how much I care” to the point where my own emotions erupted out of control. I didn't mean for it to change how any of you view me, I'm not a monster. I'm don't wish to control anyone, I just want you all to realize that no matter what you've done or how you present yourself, I still care. Nothing can get in the way of that and I will abuse how much your hardships “don't matter to me” because I'm always going to be there anyway. Nothing will stop me from caring

Also, I had to be sure I didn't cry during the video because that's not the message I want to convey. I had to record the visor multiple times to get it under control. If I cried, that would have implied that “I want you all to feel bad”, which I don't. I chose to smile as best I could because I wanted to give off the notion “it's okay”. I had to keep calm and collected because if I don't forgive myself, how could anyone else? And I wasn't trying to guilt-trip either. I wanted you all to be aware of how foolish I was about the whole thing, but until I make things right again, I won't worry much for anything else. And I want to make things right again and it starts with this video.

Again, thank you for your time and I hope you can accept my apology 