Thread:1MysteriousEnigma/@comment-24583896-20160801031141

In spite of the bickering and the heartache, my goal is to develop healthy relationships with each of you. I'm trying to be as steady as possible, and I know I've fallen off course many times, but I will still have your back. I know I have placed the pressure on some of you a numbers times, but that's because I want to bring out the best in you

I see that many of you are troubled, but don't think I take that in a negative light. Each and every aspect of you is phenomenal, and the more you struggle, the stronger you are destined to become. I'm here to let you know not to give up. I know life can be difficult, I know there will be moments where you collapse, I know people will side against you because you are different. But when I say "who cares", that's just another way I chose to say "you're still brilliant". And you're brilliant because you're you

I thought I could convince you all that your flaws can be used as a way of outlining the best you that you can be. Your weak points and your differences don't make you a bad person unless you allow them to. It doesn't matter what I say, it doesn't matter what anybody says, you decide who you are. If anybody thinks otherwise, don't listen unless it serves to benefit you. And even then, you don't have to take their advice. Just be yourself

I know I can be a jerk because I'm passionate about what's best for people, but I don't even know what's best for myself. All I know is that it pains me to watch others suffer. And if it was I who tormented you, do know I feel no better about the situation. I involve myself so that nobody has to suffer, even if it means offending others. The point is not to validate what you've done wrong, I could care less about your mistakes. We all make them, but in order to prevent them in the long term, growing from your mistakes is a virtue. And growing entails a change; eventually, we all need it

My purpose is not to hurt anyone, I would much rather die. And I mean that. If I hurt you, please allow me to make it up to you. I don't want to share tensions with anybody, that's not the person I am. Please consider that. It's not that I don't care about your difficulties and what they're doing to you, it's that I care way more than I probably should. Bringing your faults to my attention will incline me to help. I've been through enough to know I don't want you to focus on the things that hurt you because they can actually help if given the chance. That being said, if I have made your life difficult, I'm taking it upon myself to give you the best life possible. That's your choice

I'm far less than happy about the things I've don't to hurt you all, it upsets me more than you think. But I'm not letting my emotions deter you of anything I wouldn't want anyone to do for me. I care for your well being, so when you weaknesses surface, I target them. Handling me at my worse brings you closer and closer to my better side. I know it's scary, it scares me too, but getting through it or choosing to run away makes all the difference. That's the kind of friend I am, so be prepared for it. You may see me as a threat, but I'm actually there to support and defend you. So buckle down, it's far from over <3 