Board Thread:General Discussion/@comment-27002181-20160621190336/@comment-24583896-20160621224357

OOO, to celebrate this most grandiose occasion, I'll present a confession of mine to you all!

If there's one thing I can say about myself, falling in love is a pure weakness of mine. Now, growing up, I was never happy, but that all changed when I realized how much it meant to be happy. And today, being happy is what I live for! Though it doesn't show clearly, I am a very passionate person. Sure, I’m quite unsociable and nonchalant, but that’s because I’m not good at expressing my emotions with certainty. I am a Scorpio after all, lawl. However, I am easily able to express them through writing, and by extension, texting and messaging others online. Truth be told, I might be intense and made of stone on the outside, but in actuality, I am flooded and overjoyed with delight! So much, in fact, that I can get swept away. Floating around in an envelope of hearts; settling in a field of graceful vegetation where I can skip around briskly.

It's sort of hard to describe which sexual orientation I identify with, not that I need a label, but I don't have a preference. Perhaps that doesn’t make any sense at all, but if I'm truly pansexual, I wouldn't be surprised. I legitimately feel a love for everything and everyone! I've found that I struggle to find a general hatred for anything. I'm very cautious when it comes to speaking the word “hate”; it’s not a term I use loosely. It really does take a lot to convince me that I shouldn't love something. However, if there's one thing I truly “hate”, it's anything that gets in the way of allowing me to love. Pretty obvious, I know, but I'm not here to hate anything! Even if a person is intent on making me hate them, I'll love them anyway. Even if someone were to murder my family, I'll rip them to shreds, but I'll love them anyway!

To me, love is everything, it’s the reason I'm here! I just want to be able to connect with everybody, no matter who they are, and I've found that love is the easiest way for me. I will say that it is utterly exhausting, but if there's anything I've learned? It's that giving up is even more exhausting! And I don't want to give up on anybody, though it may seem that way at times, but it's only because I rely on others to accept myself for who I am! I'm so fragile, it's ridiculous, but I don't have any shame. And it's all thanks to the people who have given me a chance to love <3 So, I'll mention a few things about my first love

To take you all back to 2011, the first person I fell helplessly in love with was my best ever friend. She was the kind of person I could talk with about anything, hold hands with, and make me feel valuable in every single way. I never told her, but in the time we first met, I was miserable, though I was beginning to transition away from that. And she was a big help. She helped me to get in touch with a side of me that I would have never thought to bring out on my own. People thought our relationship was strange, but it didn't matter what they thought. I knew how I felt about her and if she accepted it, I could to. The two of us were virtually inseparable and she wasn't just any friend, she was an extension of me. I didn't realize how much I loved her until she moved unexpectedly. I wasn't able to talk to her for months at a time, but I knew she wouldn't want me to be sad. So I chose to be happy. And what do you know? I few months ago, I was able to spend time with her again. Though we got stranded on the interstate and slept on a couch that night, that's not what mattered to me. I got my wish and I had tons of fun! Nothing needed to change and I wouldn't want it to. I enjoyed every second of her presence and I hope I'm able to see her again someday <3 Thank you all! <3 <3 <3